I am tired, I am sad but I am hopeful. This sickness drags me down and tries to stump me but I remain strong with the help of the Holy Spirit.
Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7 Wait? Who likes to wait? I pray and read but I don’t want to bother God. Whose lie is that? Deep down inside I know he doesn’t mind my interruptions because they are not. He calls me to pray about anything. I am so grateful for His faithfulness. Sometimes I ask Him if He’s there and sweet as he is and responds in His own unique way. For example this morning He sent as swift breeze. The birds are around but quiet as I open the bible to Psalm 42 …God why have you forsaken me? Why must I go about mourning and oppressed by the enemy?
We don’t have to. I know we may stumble but we must remember that He wants to make us smile and fill us with His joy. As I read His promises in Psalm 91, it makes me smile: “I dwell in the shelter of the Most High. I will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust. Surely He will save me from the fowler’s snare and the deadly pestilence.” WOW! What a promise. He will get me through these difficulties and cover me with his feathers and under His wings I will find refuge. How beautiful!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
hummingbirds
This morning I’m on my way to the Urologist, Can’t shake this abdominal pain. I think it’s an infection, we’ll see. This chili morning I went out with my very strong coffee to enjoy the hummingbirds. There were at least six of them. They were so fast I couldn’t keep track of them. I wish I could be that fast. Maybe someday.
These days I am short of breath and I have to make Terry and Lauren slow down so I can keep up with them. It is not that slow so don’t worry but for someone as active as I am, it’s a little disconcerting. Yet I know Christ walks by my side.
No side effects from chemo, just the usual fatigue.
Hummingbirds are super fast and drink a lot of sugar water. I wish for tiny bit of their speed (but just a tiny bit), otherwise I’d be running into the windows all the time. I’ve seen them do it and it surprising they don’t die, they simply fly up to the nearest branches for recovery. I think we run into “windows” at times because we are trying to do too much.
Back when I was a kid my father had a car, but we didn’t go anywhere unless he wanted to go. I’m sure there were times when some of us got to go with him. And when I didn’t get to go I would be sad and a bit angry because since I was the oldest girl, I had to baby sit. Rrg! I felt trapped. I did have fun with my siblings but preferred to be out and about. Some of you know I love to travel, especially missionary work.
Our church took several trips with the youth and I always wanted to go. I did go in a few trips but had to step back a few times to allow others to join in the work with the church youth. But I missed it dearly. My desire during those trips was to encourage our young people to grow in their faith and humility. They were wonderful young people. I’m so proud of them. It was exhausting work but very fulfilling. Sometimes, when I was very tired I would read up on Psalms 121:
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
Even when we take our eyes off of Him, the Lord watches of us, He is our hope and keeps us from all harm both now and forever more. Isn’t that great?!
As per the hummingbirds, when I get to heaven, I’m going to ask for wings or maybe a friendly eagle to fly me around. I don’t want to fly as fast as the hummingbirds because I may crash into one of the mansions windows (you know they say there will mansions in heaven. Correct me if I'm wrong. :) Will there be planets and stars left, then, I want to fly by and check them out. Yet it won’t matter, heaven will be enough.
These days I am short of breath and I have to make Terry and Lauren slow down so I can keep up with them. It is not that slow so don’t worry but for someone as active as I am, it’s a little disconcerting. Yet I know Christ walks by my side.
No side effects from chemo, just the usual fatigue.
Hummingbirds are super fast and drink a lot of sugar water. I wish for tiny bit of their speed (but just a tiny bit), otherwise I’d be running into the windows all the time. I’ve seen them do it and it surprising they don’t die, they simply fly up to the nearest branches for recovery. I think we run into “windows” at times because we are trying to do too much.
Back when I was a kid my father had a car, but we didn’t go anywhere unless he wanted to go. I’m sure there were times when some of us got to go with him. And when I didn’t get to go I would be sad and a bit angry because since I was the oldest girl, I had to baby sit. Rrg! I felt trapped. I did have fun with my siblings but preferred to be out and about. Some of you know I love to travel, especially missionary work.
Our church took several trips with the youth and I always wanted to go. I did go in a few trips but had to step back a few times to allow others to join in the work with the church youth. But I missed it dearly. My desire during those trips was to encourage our young people to grow in their faith and humility. They were wonderful young people. I’m so proud of them. It was exhausting work but very fulfilling. Sometimes, when I was very tired I would read up on Psalms 121:
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
Even when we take our eyes off of Him, the Lord watches of us, He is our hope and keeps us from all harm both now and forever more. Isn’t that great?!
As per the hummingbirds, when I get to heaven, I’m going to ask for wings or maybe a friendly eagle to fly me around. I don’t want to fly as fast as the hummingbirds because I may crash into one of the mansions windows (you know they say there will mansions in heaven. Correct me if I'm wrong. :) Will there be planets and stars left, then, I want to fly by and check them out. Yet it won’t matter, heaven will be enough.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Samuel
I was reading about little Samuel hearing the voice of God but not knowing who it was. When he heard the voice but didn’t see anyone, he went to Eli for guidance. Eli, old and tired, sent the little boy back to bed.
After a while Eli realized God was calling little Samuel and finally gave the little boy some advise. I think there are many Samuel’s out there looking for guidance from adults they respect. But sometimes we’re too busy and tired.
This also applies to prayer. As believers, we need to seek someone we trust to pray for and with us, so this means we must trust each other.
Little Samuel went to Eli for help and guidance. Eli was too tired and sent him away. Little Samuel kept hearing a voice and kept coming back to Eli until Eli realized what was going on. I think if Eli had taken the boy and prayed with him at that very moment things would have gone much better, especially for Eli.
As believers, we need to rely on each other for strength. We need to pray and encourage one another, in confidence. We must pray as a church body and for one another individually.
Like little Samuel there might be someone, chosen by God, to deliver a message and asking for your prayers and advice. We need to be receptive to this. I love it when young people share their needs with me. I always try to see them through God’s eyes and motivate them to seek Him through prayer. Holy Spirit will always inspire them and us if we are willing.
I’m seeing a movement among our youth and we must be receptive to this. God wants to do something big with our youth. Let’s unite in prayer for His will for this generation. Ask Him to give us a willing heart and eyes to see them through His precious eyes.
Let’s look at our young ones through Jesus’ eyes. Some may be like Samuel, hearing a voice calling them. Some may try looking for guidance once, maybe twice. But some may give up after the first time. Let’s keep our eyes open and be more willing to listen and pray with these people. I know we will see so much potential. It is exciting to know God is at work in our youth.
After a while Eli realized God was calling little Samuel and finally gave the little boy some advise. I think there are many Samuel’s out there looking for guidance from adults they respect. But sometimes we’re too busy and tired.
This also applies to prayer. As believers, we need to seek someone we trust to pray for and with us, so this means we must trust each other.
Little Samuel went to Eli for help and guidance. Eli was too tired and sent him away. Little Samuel kept hearing a voice and kept coming back to Eli until Eli realized what was going on. I think if Eli had taken the boy and prayed with him at that very moment things would have gone much better, especially for Eli.
As believers, we need to rely on each other for strength. We need to pray and encourage one another, in confidence. We must pray as a church body and for one another individually.
Like little Samuel there might be someone, chosen by God, to deliver a message and asking for your prayers and advice. We need to be receptive to this. I love it when young people share their needs with me. I always try to see them through God’s eyes and motivate them to seek Him through prayer. Holy Spirit will always inspire them and us if we are willing.
I’m seeing a movement among our youth and we must be receptive to this. God wants to do something big with our youth. Let’s unite in prayer for His will for this generation. Ask Him to give us a willing heart and eyes to see them through His precious eyes.
Let’s look at our young ones through Jesus’ eyes. Some may be like Samuel, hearing a voice calling them. Some may try looking for guidance once, maybe twice. But some may give up after the first time. Let’s keep our eyes open and be more willing to listen and pray with these people. I know we will see so much potential. It is exciting to know God is at work in our youth.
Monday, August 8, 2011
hiding
No squirrels or birds out this morning. It's cloudy and it looks like rain. It;s like they are there but do not want to be seen. Maybe hiding from me. Maybe they are growing tired of this human sitting on the back porch watching them eat and go about their business. I would!
Do you ever have days like this? You are there but don't want to be seen? When I was a kid and didn't want to be seen, especially by my father. I would hide in my room and under the bed or the closet. Then I would try really hard to think of the good times I've had at my aunt Margo's house. She was kind enough to let me stay with her during the summer breaks. There were no kids at her house to play with but I actually enjoyed the quiet surroundings. When you have so many siblings (there were 7 of us) you are fortunate enough to have someone to play with but when you wanted to be alone, there was simply nowhere to hide.
But as I learned later when I became a christian. There is no way I could ever be alone. I learned that Jesus was always with me. He doesn't play hide and seek because he knows where you are going to hide. Cute.
Today I don't want to hide, like the squirrels. Today I would love to sit in my Fathers' lap. You know, like a little toddler, climb onto His lap, wrap my arms around Him and talk with Him. Do you ever have days like this?
Do you ever have days like this? You are there but don't want to be seen? When I was a kid and didn't want to be seen, especially by my father. I would hide in my room and under the bed or the closet. Then I would try really hard to think of the good times I've had at my aunt Margo's house. She was kind enough to let me stay with her during the summer breaks. There were no kids at her house to play with but I actually enjoyed the quiet surroundings. When you have so many siblings (there were 7 of us) you are fortunate enough to have someone to play with but when you wanted to be alone, there was simply nowhere to hide.
But as I learned later when I became a christian. There is no way I could ever be alone. I learned that Jesus was always with me. He doesn't play hide and seek because he knows where you are going to hide. Cute.
Today I don't want to hide, like the squirrels. Today I would love to sit in my Fathers' lap. You know, like a little toddler, climb onto His lap, wrap my arms around Him and talk with Him. Do you ever have days like this?
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Blessings
The strain of life is what builds our strength. If there is no strain, there will be no strength. Are you asking God to give you life, liberty, and joy? He cannot, unless you are willing to accept the strain. And once you face the strain, you will immediately get the strength. Oswald Chambers.
Tough week for me. But I’m grateful that Terry’s family came over for a few days. I thank you for your prayers so much! God is good and faithful and when we least expected he’ll send a blessing. My health has been up and down. I’ve been tired and my eyes have given me a little trouble. So I can’t walk too far (I’m using the treadmill). So I have to hang on to the arms on the treadmill which makes me feel weak and old . So I walk ten minutes, slow down a bit and then pick up speed again. My goal is 30 minutes and so far I’ve been able to do so. You guys are thinking I’m nuts, but its fun. I take my time and listen to Christian music or watch a favorite show.
I’ve visited the oncologist yesterday for chemo. Now you guys are wondering. What? Chemo, again? Well, I’m sorry for the misunderstanding. I am done with head chemo for a while. Apparently no cancer cells showed in the last lab work they did of my head. YAY! So that means that Dr. F feels we can take a brake from the head chemo and work on the rest of my body. So now we will do weekly chemo. If you have any questions, please let me know, but right now I need to walk while I have some energy. Thanks again for your prayers
Blessings to you all,
Doris
ps:My sisters came to visit yesterday and it was fun having them here. They make me laugh. Thank God for blessings like family.
Tough week for me. But I’m grateful that Terry’s family came over for a few days. I thank you for your prayers so much! God is good and faithful and when we least expected he’ll send a blessing. My health has been up and down. I’ve been tired and my eyes have given me a little trouble. So I can’t walk too far (I’m using the treadmill). So I have to hang on to the arms on the treadmill which makes me feel weak and old . So I walk ten minutes, slow down a bit and then pick up speed again. My goal is 30 minutes and so far I’ve been able to do so. You guys are thinking I’m nuts, but its fun. I take my time and listen to Christian music or watch a favorite show.
I’ve visited the oncologist yesterday for chemo. Now you guys are wondering. What? Chemo, again? Well, I’m sorry for the misunderstanding. I am done with head chemo for a while. Apparently no cancer cells showed in the last lab work they did of my head. YAY! So that means that Dr. F feels we can take a brake from the head chemo and work on the rest of my body. So now we will do weekly chemo. If you have any questions, please let me know, but right now I need to walk while I have some energy. Thanks again for your prayers
Blessings to you all,
Doris
ps:My sisters came to visit yesterday and it was fun having them here. They make me laugh. Thank God for blessings like family.
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